Personal break

I know I rarely say things when I post or most of you havent gotten a feeling of what Rhocksea is about. Some may say I'm a bitch, snobby, a grandma, too serious at times...well all of them are true because now a days you cant be too nice, now a days you have to be smart in the choices you make daily, and not everyone in this world is going to give you hug when they see you and wave hello each morning. I can be very outspoken and fun but certain things in life must be done at the right place at the right time.
I need to speak my mind. I woke up today thinking what do I "want" in my life and what do I "need" in my life.
"I want to buy my own island and live there isolated from this crazy world and call it My World. I want to own every pair of shoes I lay my eyes on. I want all the vintage dresses I can find. I want to be a little taller. I want to be successful in what I have true passion for. I want more clothes..." I cant keep going and the list wont end..then I start to ponder upon what I NEED.
"I need genuine honesty, genuine love, genuine happiness, respect, comfort. I need to finish going to school. I need to continue to do my job as a daughter and the oldest sister. I need to continue to love myself. I need strength."
That is where pretty much my Needs end. The important things in life. Things that I cannot buy or pay for to get my satisfaction. Things I can only obtain internally. And BOOM! That's where it hit me. I CAN ONLY OBTAIN.
Every morning I open my eyes is a miracle. I am thankful but I will admit, not satisfied. I havent accomplished much but enough for my capability at this moment. I have a vision and I'm not stopping, I have more years to grow and progress and soon meet Ms. Satisfaction.